When The Grass Is NOT Greener...
Question: “Do you ever miss being that lean?” 👇
Answer: No. Honestly. Not one bit.
I don’t miss being #728 at a show, lining up to have a panel of predominantly old men judge my body.
I don’t miss being admired/ valued for my physical appearance only.
I don’t miss having ALL of my energy each day dedicated to the goal of being lean.
I was talking to my husband about this last night, how sometimes people say things like, “You look great now, but WOW-“ (Referring to pics from my competition/ fitness modeling days.)
And I get it. I too can appreciate the amount of discipline that went into getting my body to that state.
But I also know the absolute misery behind it all. I was painfully insecure, and no matter how lean I got I never felt like I was good enough.
Even on the day of a show, I STILL did not feel confident or sexy in my own skin. I was still finding flaws, and obsessing over how I could be better.
Now I feel confident, sexy, and “ENOUGH,” even on my worst days- when my hair is a mess, I’m breaking out, no makeup on, forgot to shave my legs and have massive bloat from PMS (or too much fun over the weekend!) YUP.
Even then, I feel good enough. 👑
So I don’t take offense to comments about how amazing I looked “THEN,” because I know I love my body (and myself) soooo much more now.
This is my personal proof that weight, or your physical body, doesn’t actually determine your body confidence AT ALL!
I am WAY more confident in my body now. I love & appreciate it every day- cellulite, stretch marks, and all. 🙋🏻♀️
MOST importantly, I see my body as a beautiful vessel for my soul.
I appreciate it because this physical body of mine allows me to do my life’s work.
To serve my TRUE purpose. (Which I now realize has nothing to do with how I look!)
No one can take that away from me.
When I stand in my purpose, unapologetically loving myself- I am untouchable, & unstoppable.
And that’s f*cking powerful.
THAT is true confidence.
And guess what? It is available to you too. ✨
It starts with deciding to crown yourself worthy AS YOU ARE, then STANDING in that worth.
Know who you are.